Frustrated, Thursday

Yesterday, was tough; my day was thrown off at 9 am when I had to rush my 7 yr old to the ER; she has been having dizzy spells, and this one was bad with vomiting so we went right in; …

I didnt hit my steps, only 7500; my calories were 1640;

but I only drank about 40 oz of water; and slept a few hours.. worrying about her.. so Wednesday .. ugh.

Thursday, today.. I had 1650 cal and again didnt hit my steps; i worked most of the day ( dipping chocolates for our coffee shops) then took each kid to meet the teacher at different schools, and ran errands.  I have been sick/throat / head etc.  and its making me feel so sad.  I snuck and jumped on my parents scale tonight. i know i shouldnt have but it said 306.5 and i just wanted to cry.  I know things cant change overnight; but i dont feel im gaining.. and i guess i am :((((

These are the times where i feel so sad.. that why am I eating, egg whites in the morning, protein shakes, and salads for dinner when all im doing is gaining.. why dont i just let myself have the waffles and butter and syrups, the foot long subway and the fast food if its going to result in the same thing. UGH. feeling down..

sad about my daughter, sad about the weight, frustrated, sick. bad day overall.

I did however get a pic of the salad I made; I choose to make this for dinner to be good; grilled chicken, lettuce, light dressing, little bacon.. was good!

 

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Here is a photo of the basic bundle; 24 Day Challenge is what I started with! 🙂

A little more…

Tuesday.. I think overall I did great!

I have been coming down with something, cant swallow :// so considering that; I walked for 45 min today and did about 11,000 steps total! Yay, I also did 1,485 Calories.. and Day 4 of the Cleanse; so took my

Spark and Probiotic in the morning,

Thermo plus before lunch

Lepti Lean before Dinner and then Fibo Trim and my cleanse pills before bed!

 

I had purchased the Lepti Lean, Thermo Plus and Fibo trim to try them all out. So far I like them all, the LeptiLean helps me curb my hunger, and the Fibo Trim has really helped with my digestion/moving waste through my system; the thermo im still trying to figure out .. but its supposed to help burn extra calories/up metabolism.

I cant remember if i said this yesterday but I had my scaled ‘taken hostage’ by my Life Coach.  I was weighing myself 10-15 times a day. yes.. obsessive. Id reward myself for losing a few pounds.. by eating.. and then if i gained a few pounds.. id eat out of sadness. So basically sabotaging myself the whole time. Its frustrating me a lot not having it.. and its been gone a week and a half. The last weigh in I had on it was 299.0.  So.. I think she is going to give it back in the middle of Sept. Hopefully it wont stress me as much; Im supposed to be concentrating on pant size…. was a 28; now a 24.  So.. thats what we will do here! :)) Oh and I also have measurements so Ill upload those soon :))

 

Intro..

Day one using wordpress; check.

 

Hey Guys, not sure anyone will read this, but I wanted start a space that I could journal my weight loss journey.. and all that comes with that!

Im 37 yrs old, a mother of two awesome kids ages 5 and 7; live on the Oregon coast.. am married, and work as a Barista/Chocolatier in our family business.

I started using Advocare in July, and have since became an Advisor because I loved the products, and wanted the ability to benefit not only with my Health, but financially as well.. and spread the love and help to others through my experience!

My plan is to upload photos, videos, blog my thoughts feelings etc.. and maybe connect with others going through the same journey!

Today:

I woke up with a ‘fire in my gut’ to do better; that Im sick of being at this weight.  The last time I weighed I was almost 310 pounds. Ive lost and gained 100 pounds a few times; but always have been overweight. Some significant events have occured in my life this past year; to make me want to make a permanant change.  Im sure they will all eventually come out in the blog 🙂

Today….

I kept a hand written journal of what I ate and times; took my morning spark, and also started the 24 day challenge a few days back so today was Day 3 of the cleanse.

I stayed home today ( day off of work) with my 5 and 7 yr old and cleaned most of the day; so I was able to cook at home.  I find that I have a pattern; I do great until about 2pm them BAM.. im So hungry, all the cravings hit.

I felt like I did well today; writing down all of my food, taking my supplements; now Im going to add up the calorie total…. drum roll…2,120 calories. 

UGH.. my goal was 1500…. on the other hand; 2120 is pretty good compared to what I probably normally have!

I also have a goal of hitting 10,000 steps a day…; I didnt hit that today.  only 8000. 

Also, goal to drink 1 gallon of water.. did that!

On to tomorrow….

On to the next day; and to try again. 

 

 

First Post- Aug 26th, 2013

This is my first post on WordPress!